Anger

A strange kind of anger is brewing inside me, It is not directed at anything or anyone, It is just there. I can feel it running through my veins, I can feel it banging against my self-control, trying to burst out, It takes quite a bit of effort to keep it under check. I am unable to function normally though.
Nothing seems right, nothing looks ok, I am angry at myself and I am angry at all the people around me. I am angry at the expectations I have, I am angry at the expectations I have of myself too.
I am full of venom and don't know whom to spew it at. I have become neelkanth or so I would like to think, though I don't think I can keep it inside me for long............

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~asto' ma sat gamaya