Find me some solace please

Pretending to be alright

with my heart in a vice

hazy vision, clouded thoughts

laboured breaths, heavy feet

a low that seems to drown

smile on my face

and a welcome song in heart

I force myself to hum

tone deaf cheery tune
every moment a fight 

denial of negativity

hope that i sow

it crumbles before it finds root

yet I keep sowing

waiting for benevolent rain

drench me in your essence

make me see what I see not

guide me, help me, rescue me

prayers after a long pause

not to lose self to dark

show me a glimmer

a light i can follow on

tell me to have heart

tell me it will be alright

remind me to love

remind me to live

remind me to be