Everything seems fake

each day a new low

don't know if I am riding a wave

or it is a crest I have fallen into

questions that need answers

questions that don't have answers

answers that make me squirm

answers I am not sure of

and while this happens

i sink into a new abyss

light is rushing away

darkness engulfs

It is cold too

and my body feels broken

No soul left in me

no warmth to give any more

Caustic Tongue
Lash lash lash
Who are you
Bang bang bang
Low esteem
Am better than you
Low confidence
I will demolish you
I love you
My pound of flesh

Heer - Jab Tak Hai Jaan - Translation

I am in love with the song..

Cannot stop listening.

Heer Ranjha and Mirza Sahibaan are love stories from Punjab.

no connection between two :-) 

now the song or at least my interpretation.

Heer thinks she is in love with Ranjha but discovers that she is actually Mirza's Sahiban.

In other words it is a song of discovering that your heart beats for someone else.

In ways it is about the deep wish to fight fate and following hearts desire.

but above all it is a beautiful love ballad, heart rendering music and deep deep lyrics.

Heer Heer na akho odiyo, Main te Sahibaan hoyi,
Khodi (Mare) leke aaye le jaaye, Khodi leke aaye le jaaye,
Le jaaye Mirza koi, Le jaaye Mirza koi

Don't call me Heer, I am but Sahiban

May he come and take me away

May some Mirza come my way

Ohde je hi main te oh mere varga,
hansda ae sajra sawere varga,
ankha bandh kar la te thande hanere varga

I am like him and he like me

When he laughs he ushers in bright morning

when he closes his eyes he is like cool of night.

ohde je hi main te o Mirza mere varga

I am like him and he like me

Naal naal tur na te vith rakhna
hadd rakh lena wich dil rakhna,
chhanve chhanve paawe assi teri parchhawe tur na

Lets walk together but keep some distance
Lets keep our hearts in that distance
but lets walk together even if it is walking as your shadow.

As well be Dead

Surrounded by darkness

Venom of retribution

Closed doors, empty corridors

No trespassing

No sacred earth

Just a no man’s land

Every step fraught in minefield

Nothing escapes the watchful eye

Nothing spared off memory

All transgressions etched in time

Void of story, just the basic facts

Unrelenting judgment

Unforgiving hatred

Halfhearted compromises

Missing touch

As well be dead

As well be dead

Blank

Voices in my head

they don't heed to me anymore

have a life of their own

and me as a slave

critique everything I do

fight over each small detail

perspectives and bitter hurt

and they keep it alive

keep rambling

keep mumbling

keep ranting

For a second all is silent

and then the racket returns

YOU ARE A LOSER

WILL ALWAYS BE TAKEN FOR RIDE

WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE

THINK ABOUT YOURSELF MAN

THE GUILT YOU FEEL IS YOUR UNDOING

I AM SO SORRY MAN

I WISH I COULD CHANGE PAST

I WISH I CAN CHANGE PRESENT

I WANT TO BREAK FREE NOW

NOBODY OWNS YOU

NOBODY CARES

THERE IS NO LOVE HERE

THERE IS NO PEACE TO BE HAD

LET GO LET GO LET GO

BULLET THROUGH HEAD

WHY FIGHT, FOR WHAT FOR WHOM

IT IS OVER MAN, WHEN WILL YOU NOTICE

BE A MAN AND TAKE CONTROL

YOU WUSS, GO FUCK YOURSELF

YOU CAN DO BETTER

YOU DESERVE BETTER

I DON'T BELONG

I DON'T BELIEVE

I FEEL LONELY

THINK POSITIVE

THERE IS NOTHING LEFT TO THINK

CIRCLES, YOU GO IN CIRCLES

YOU BET ON WRONG PEOPLE

I WANT TO DIE

I WANT SOME PEACE

YEAH RIGHT, YOU COWARD

YOU BLOODY NO GOOD PIECE OF WRETCH

WHY DON'T YOU JUST DIE

close my eyes

try to usher in some sanity

try to think something good and warm

and all i hit is a blank

blank as a desert

blank as the void that fills cosmos

blank as my life has become

blank as the mind wants to feel

Happy Diwali

After a long hiatus, I think I am ready to write again.
and hopefully this time around I will make sure that I keep coming back to write.

Have seen pretty much everything there is to see in life. Last 11 years have been a journey for self realisation and discovery. Lost a lot and gained a lot. All in all a much wiser and mellowed down version of me is writing this post today.

Back from dead, hope to stay this way.