Cursing the Gods

something in me has given way
have not wept still
cannot seem to weep too
something very elemental has gone missing
have missed folks before
it would feel as if a part of me was missing
but this is different
my soul is missing this time around
I am missing this time around
as if I am resurrected after the wrath of gods
but I am the only one resurrected
can't say for sure
if it is heaven or hell
don't have a bearing to measure it by
sinking in a bottomless pit doesn't describe it
feeling lost doesn't describe it
I am like a ghost, a shadow
pale and withdrawn
cursing the gods for resurrecting me
cursing the gods for making me what I am
cursing the gods...........


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~asto' ma sat gamaya