Ray

I don't think anything needs to be said about this movie, except for probably an apology for catching up on it after 3 years.

Bheja Fry

Simply mind blowing :-) The narrative is very tight, the script is superb and let's say everyone except Ranvir Shorey is a pleasure to watch :-)

Have to watch this one to experience "Bheja Fry". Some of the moments will stay for long with you all and will become part of lingua franca. Can't forget the "Tharki" scene from the movie..

Sideways

one of the rare movies that absorbes you in the plot and characters and makes you feel one with them, there is no one larger than life, but both the leads are trying to come to terms with life. Two unlikely friends, go on a wine tasting trip for a week, before one of them gets married.

Miles (Paul Giamatti) is a sensitive writer, who has been trying very hard to get published, the shadow of his failed marriage and love with his ex wife, looms large on his psyche and even after 2 years he is unwilling to move on, in fact he has lost the want to move on, he is caught in his litost and celebrates it.

Jack (Thomas Haden Church), is an actor, who is finding the mid-life a bit tough since his acting career never took off as it was supposed to take off, he is getting married to some money bag and it is the most important thing to have happened to him, but he wants to have one last week of prolonged philandering, before he gives up his freedom and settles down.

Miles is depressed and Jack is desperate and together they make a hilarious set, trying to come to terms with life on their own terms.

It is a heartwarming movie that makes you see the irony and pain of life, through subtle humour.

A must see

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useless trivia

1. The word "lethologica" describes the state of not being able to remember the word you want.
2. A snail can sleep for 3 years.
3. People photocopying their buttocks are the cause of 23% of all photocopier faults worldwide.
4. The electric chair was invented by a dentist.
5. You share your birthday with at least 9 million other people in the world.
6. Cats have over one hundred vocal sounds; dogs only have about ten.
7. In every episode of "Seinfeld" there is a Superman picture or reference somewhere.
8. If Barbie were life-size her measurements would be 39-23-33. She would stand seven feet two inches tall and have a neck twice the length of a normal human's neck.
9. Rats multiply so quickly that in 18 months, two rats could have over million descendants.
10. More than 50% of the people in the world have never made or received a telephone call.
11. The word "maverick" came into use after Samuel Maverick, a Texan refused to brand his cattle. Eventually any unbranded calf became known as a Maverick.
12. There are approximately 100 million acts of sexual intercourse each day.
13. Hedenophobic means fear of pleasure.
14.  An ant always falls over on its right side when intoxicated.
15. Tigers have striped skin, not just striped fur.
16. A "jiffy" is the scientific name for 1/100th of a second.
17. A polar bears skin is black. Its fur is actually clear, but like snow it appears white.
18.  If you keep a goldfish in the dark room, it will eventually turn white.
19. A "quidnunc" is a person who is eager to know the latest news and gossip.
20. In the last 4000 years no new animals have been domesticated.
21. If you plant an apple seed, it is almost guaranteed to grow a tree of a different type of apple.
22. Broccoli and cauliflower are the only vegetables that are flowers.
23. There is no solid proof of who built the Taj Mahal.
24. In a survey of 200000 ostriches over 80 years, not one tried to bury its head in the sand.
25. You can lead a cow upstairs but not downstairs.
26. At the height of its power in 400 BC, the Greek city of Sparta had 25,000 citizens and 500,000 slaves.
27. In "Silence of the Lambs", Hannibal Lector (Anthony Hopkins) never blinks.
28. In 1863, Paul Hubert of Bordeaux, France, was sentenced to life in jail for murder. After 21 years, it was discovered that he was convicted of murdering himself.
29. The "if" and "then" parts of conditional ("if P then Q") statement are called the protasis (P) and apodosis (Q).
30. Only female mosquitoes bite.
31. Most household dust is made of dead skin cells.
32. A mongoose is not a goose but more like a meercat, which is not a cat but more like a prairie dog, which is not a dog but more like a ground squirrel.
33. There are 41,806 different spoken languages in the world today.

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Wedding Crashers...

Some really funny moments, some hilarious chemistry and same old cliche of falling in love and relinquishing the mindless chase, to bed as many women as you can. All in all a good time pass.

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V For Vendetta

Just finished watching "V for Vendetta", Yes I know I am pretty late in catching up the said movie, but better late than never.

I really liked the movie, I am a sucker for these kind of larger than life movies, that make me forget everything else and make me believe for sometime that all humanity can unite for a cause, that freedom and liberty can rule and that all we need is one superhero to set the world right :-)

Wish I was that superhero.....

but I would have been a real evil one i guess.

Anyway I loved the movie, I remember watching Star wars "Phantom Menace" when i was in college, I picked up a tube light from my room (to be precise Tyagi's room) and went down to Raju's canteen, feeling like a Jedi Knight, yes movies do that to me, that is why I want to make movies, movies are my life.

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Allure of solitude lies in it being perennial

I walk towards the golden sunset again
tired and unwilling to go on
have walked enough to know the futility of it all
have seen enough to have the want to shut out
have been a vagabond all my life
no place to call home
no place to seek solace
sought solace is all trivialities i could engage
now I have run out of  destinations
I have run out of reason
just want to lie back and go to sleep
Dreams please don't trouble me again
hopes please don't shower yourself unto me
Woods are peaceful
mountain is senile
flowers are beautiful
soon, just wait
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nothing to say

Want to post something but nothing comes to my mind, I have sort of gone blank, does it mean I don't have anythign to say anymore?? Or is this a pointer that I am too absorbed in my own world. But even on personal front i find nothing to say, nothing worth saying, nothing that has not been put down already. things have not changed. Have they stagnated then??

 

Watched Bheja-Fry this Sunday, and I must say i loved the movie.

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I didn't know the height to which i would rise

I didn't know the depth to which i would fall

didn't know what i felt and how intensely

didn't know if I would cope up or languish

didn't know if hate will ruin the love or love will win

didn't know what hit me when it hit me

don't know if i truly understand it even now

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Crazy dream

In a strange land, where time moves is circles

they rear them everyday, everyday is the same

animals, some you have seen, some unseen

humans, some you know of, some you don't

with dawn they are all born,

and vanish with dusk

each one is an incarnation of truth

lost long ago someplace

 

as the day progresses

you see the safari as never seen before

animals don't know their character

beasts are docile, bovines are aggressive

in a world gone Topsy-turvy

rhinoceros are playful of all

they let you bathe them, they let you be close

all humans have plastic smiles

I recognize a few faces here

but most of them don't register

 

It feels I have woken up from deep slumber

for i think something is wrong

as the evening approaches

all are ushered into big bath chambers

where they are washed away 

i see the man opposite me

scars appear on his face

his face starts to melt

his legs give way

but he doesn't feel the pain

he is a lump of mass now

but i can still make out the hint of a grin

 

now it is my turn

and I am not too sure

i feel my skin splitting open

but there is no pain

I rejoice in the pouring liquid

and forget everything about the day

days are the same here

and it is an eternity we have lived

 

but now i question it

why, i am not sure

I think i remember yesterday

i think i remember the time going in circles

i think i understand what is happening

i think i have seen the pattern

I pat the rhino again

steer clear from the bovines

i stand on the same balcony

overlooking the mayhem below

i feel the discontent rising in me

i feel it has to end

 

come evening and the same ritual ensues

humans first take all the animals to wash

and then line up for the ritual bath

I am not too keen this time around

and i desecrate the age old wisdom of the land

i somehow keep away

and watch as others get lost

i feel my skin getting stretched and parched

 

 

I see some folks now

they bring me a liquid to apply

i put it on my body and am as good as new

they take me with them to a different land

and let me wander there

 

this land is a bit different

the time still goes in circles

but this time people persist

they are so many of them here

all alike, all image of one another

they walk as the sun goes up

they all seem happy

i see familiar faces now

I think i remember these faces

from a different life time

I walk along with them

but something is still wrong

none of them knows, why they are here

they say they are going for a ritual wash

this time they don't melt

with eyes glazed they come out

and meet me for the first time again

 

time goes round in circles here too

and I have to look for a way out.

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all fools day at Gmail

Google guys know for sure how to go about "All fools day"

check this out if you are not convinced, I am not sure how many of the guys kept looking for "Paper Archive" button.

 

http://mail.google.com/mail/help/paper/index.html

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Annie's Song - John Denver

You fill up me senses like a night in a forest
Like the mountains in springtime, like a walk in the rain
Like a storm in the desert, like a sleepy blue ocean
You fill up my senses come fill me again.

Come let me love you, let me give my life to you
Let me drown in your laughter, let me die in your arms
Let me lay down beside you, let me always be with you
Come let me love you, come love me again.

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Interesting :-)

After being hassled for I don't know how long I decided to check out Fropper.com.

so I sign in and all that stuff and finally go to their relationship tab and after signing up, i am shown this disclaimer of sorts.

I found it hilarious, I am sure these guys are just trying to save their ass proactively from Indian judiciary :-)

 

Important Note

As a married person you are allowed to use Fropper Relationships for friendship only. This site is not meant to encourage and / or promote illicit sexual relations or extra marital affairs. If Fropper.com discovers or becomes aware that any member is using this site to promote or engage or indulge in illicit sexual relations or extra marital affairs his/ her membership will be terminated forthwith without any refund and without any liability to Fropper.com. Fropper.com's discretion to terminate shall be final and binding. If the above is not acceptable, please write to customer care and cancel your membership/profile.

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Dead man walking

go sleep, where i entombed thee

don't wake up and walk

haunting everyone you come across

go lie down in that beautiful coffin

don't stray and seek anymore

you are dead now

and dead are not supposed to walk

you still feel, you say

you might have a soul, you muse

all your feelings are dead

and your soul is lost

don't become walking dead

lie down in that crypt of yours

you don't have a heart that beats anymore

you are but a corpse

and no one can love a corpse

don't try to find solace

you are damned for eternity

come to terms with the rot

no, you cannot smell the stench

you don't have any senses anymore

go back to the world of dead

and be there, even if you are awake

ponder over what went wrong?

no you cannot feel the rage

rage is a feeling too

an no, you cannot change death

even if it happened when you least desired

dead you are so remain dead

don't talk about anguish

don't think about pain

there is no point of remorse

yes you are lonely my dear

how cannot you be, you are dead.

 

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What should one say when things go out of hand and nothing seems right?

Chill, this is not the end of the world. There is no way of knowing how life would have turned out if you wouldn't have lived it, and this is the only way it would have turned out. No point going back and question anything.

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Observations

If you want to write a suicide note, you don't want to die just yet

 

If you are waiting for love, stop waiting, go get it.

 

If life seems futile, stop bothering, it is futile.

 

If you want to be happy, be happy.

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Bhay ab nahin tha !

kuch oonche pahad

aur unpe chalte, dagmagate, hamare kadam

door se aati pani ki awaaj

aisa lagta ki nadi jharna ban beh rahi ho

aur manav use bandhne ki koshish main juta ho

is kolahal waale pani ke kinaare kinaare

chalta pahadon se apana rasta

 

Rasta kathin hai, aur mann vichilit hai

bhay kya hota hai jaan gaya hain mann

saath main jo hai, woh bahut hi priya hai

lautne ko mana karti hai woh

tum bhi maan jaate ho kush ho kar

bhay lekin ghar kar chuka hai

aur dimaag ab pag pag par darr raha hai

 

ab ek khai ko langhna hai

usper se jaata ek rassi ka pul hai

yeh sab kab hua nahin mallom mujhe

lekin use paani main girte dekha tha

aur phir uske peeche, agle hi pal main kooda tha

paani main pralya thi

lekin bhay ab nahin tha

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Isn't it beautiful :-)

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waiting for the rain

Waiting for the rain

for rain drops to fall on my face

to hear the rat-a-tat on the roof

to see everything turn green

am waiting for the rains

when thousand souls come alive

cradle of life brims over

am waiting for the rains

when deep despairs pour out

heavens cry alongside you

and the tears bring joy

am waiting for the rains

to come home drenched

to long for something warm

to rejoice once again

to live once again

 

 

 

Road trip - I

I am sitting in a shady internet cafe in suburban Mumbai, trying to type on a keyboard that doesn't always work. The agitation creeps in, but this time I am determined not to delete the post and keep typing no matter what..
Am in Mumbai, not for work, nor for pleasure. Am visiting my folks, who had this long standing complaint that I have not been to Mumbai even though I am fokat for last 3 odd months. Yes it is true I quit my job some 3 months back. And I don't get disturbed when I think about it. In fact I feel a kind of relief that is difficult to explain.
Anyway, so I decided to drive up to Mumbai, I should say that It was a great drive, accept for 150 odd KM from chitradurga to Hubli, It is a very well kept four lane highway, and yes the dessert of course is the Expressway from Pune to Mumbai.
But once in Mumbai, I am suddenly surrounded by boredom, that I am trying my best to fight against. Milan Kundera is very helpful in warding off the boredom. A chance introduction to the writer's work by Abhishek, and I am hooked.
Am looking forward to the return trip and am missing Bangalore. I am amazed by the fact though.

Learn to love

me, my car and a never ending road,
that is all I have, that is all I need,
racing through unknown lands,
trying to leave the hurt behind,
seeing the sun go down
witnessing the dawn of Venus
the Orion shows himself
but my north star still alludes me
the arid wasteland, I am driving through
can use a good rainfall this year
the rain gods are not merciful though
the land remains parched and wanting
like the unquenchable thirst in my heart
the smell of burning wood overwhelms me
reminds me of the smouldering soul inside
no matter how many tears I shed
they fail to put out the fire
the wells have dried up too
and there is no music to be heard
I am heading for sea
but the water is of no use

Nothing seems right
and i don't belong
so I drive on
to the edge of that green mountain
and feel jealousy take me over
I go blind in rage and fury
but hidden from me
the scars of the mountain weep too
I don't know them
I don't see them
All I want is to be green
but green with envy I am

I meet a vagabond en route
ask him his secret of happiness
"hate none, love all" he utters
how, I exclaim
I cannot stop hate from running through my veins
I weep and wail and unwittingly call names
"love all" is the key he says
"hate none" will follow in duress
but to start, love yourself
love what you are, love what you have become
no one can cheat you
because love cannot be cheated
Once found love doesn't end
all you know is hate right now

I muse myself over what he said
and I move on towards my destination
a city where dreams come true
or so they say
I don't have anything to loose now
have lost everything that I held dear
and I am ready to learn to love

Eklavya - A collosal waste

Had high expectation from Vidhu Vinod Chopra's Eklavya, All i heard was a faint thud as the movie fell into a timeless graveyard of unfulfilled expectations.

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just to be sure - borrowed

Was reading an old friend's blog and came across this post titled "Just to be sure".

It moved me. Some of the best things in life are so innocent and naive. I have to post the content here. I think it is from "Winnie the Pooh"

 

"Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. "Pooh," he whispered.

"Yes, Piglet?"

"Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's paw, "I just wanted to be sure of you.""

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Gabble

i see two hands

i see a face with eyes closed

is the face in ecstasy or pain

another story for another day

i see a smile now

and a kiss with wet lips

i hear the proclamation of love

i don't see myself anywhere

I feel a naked body besides me

the body wriggles like a snake

and i wish it was dead

the phone rings in distance

two voices communicate

the talk is endearing

the face has a glow

I have seen this glow before

or so i like to think

i think I thought i was hurt

but love still blooms

instant love instant gratification

he sits there and tonsures his head

he wails out, lets celebrate death

I can hear my heart beat

i think i am very scared

a female with red eyes gives me a drink

i feel better but am drowsy now

i sit in the corner and watch them mate

i find myself engulfed in rage

the rage subsides and I am stoic

i am poisoned just like life

 

some memories get ingrained in mind

like snap shots of horror

and I keep visiting them again and again

in my house of sorrows

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Virgin Mountain

on a distant horizon, she waits for him

in a world gone mad, she craves for him

what is love, she asks naively

but she is a seductress alright

a siren she is and she sings for him

she lures him, entices him

she calls herself his destiny

and he is a sucker for belief

he thinks he will find lasting love

he feels he can tame the medusa

make her hiss for him

little does he know his doom awaits

and his heart will turn to stone

 

but she loves him, or so she muses

he will have the heart that beats

and emotions that run deep

he would not freeze in pain

he would win her over she feels

she wants redemption too

she wants out of this purgatory

he would be her knight

and she her fair maiden

she beckons him and he gets drawn

and they have the mating dance

by the side of river styx

 

his eyes closed and his soul content

he reaches for her touch

she gives all she has to the bliss of a kiss

yes they stay together

and salvation is theirs for keeps

they still live on that mountain top

that no one dares to win.

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Casino

Watched the Martin Scorsese film after a gap of about 7 odd years and I saw it in a very different light. First time around i had found the movie very disturbing, I was devastated by Ginger (Sharon Stone's character), guess I was naive back then :-). this time around i saw it as a tale of survival in a world gone wrong. I fell in love with Joe Pesci's performance once again. It is his story, his zest to make it on his own, his dislike for authority, his want to possess what is off limits. and eventually his downfall.

One of the scenes that had remained etched in my memory forever has Joe Pesci stabbing a guy in his neck with a pen. and De Nero narrating in the background "No matter how big a guy might be, Nicky would take him on. You beat Nicky with fists, he comes back with a bat. You beat him with a knife, he comes back with a gun. And you beat him with a gun, you better kill him, because he'll keep comin' back and back until one of you is dead."

The opening scene also sticks out, It has the power of compelling you to watch the story of the guy who gets blown away :-) De Nero walks out to his car and turns the key and the car blows up, and all through this sequence he is narrating the following lines

When you love someone, you've gotta trust them. There's no other way. You've got to give them the key to everything that's yours. Otherwise, what's the point? And, for a while, I believed that's the kind of love I had.

Some other memorable quotes from the movie

 

A lot of holes in the desert, and a lot of problems are buried in those holes. But you gotta do it right. I mean, you gotta have the hole already dug before you show up with a package in the trunk. Otherwise, you're talking about a half-hour to forty-five minutes worth of digging. And who knows who's gonna come along in that time? Pretty soon, you gotta dig a few more holes. You could be there all fuckin' night. (Nicky -  Joe Pesci's Charatcer)

 

 think in all fairness, I should explain to you exactly what it is that I do. For instance tomorrow morning ill get up nice and early, take a walk down over to the bank and... walk in and see and uh... if you don't have my money for me, I'll... crack your fuckin' head wide-open in front of everybody in the bank. And just about the time that I'm comin' out of jail, hopefully, you'll be coming out of your coma. And guess what? I'll split your fuckin' head open again. 'Cause I'm fuckin' stupid. I don't give a fuck about jail. That's my business. That's what I do. (Nicky -  Joe Pesci's Charatcer)

 

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A drifter on prowl

moving from one green pasture to another

a lost ignorant soul

not absorbed by anything around

when he feels hungry he steals

when he feels scared he ravages

when he is happy, he sings

and dances to the tune
tune of an unheard song

he lives for today

with no thought of tomorrow

tomorrow might be a bright dawn

or a gloomy rainy day

he will face it when it comes

he will live it if it happens

 

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~asto' ma sat gamaya
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I saw you in his arms
I saw you making love to him
I saw a tear drop rolling down your cheek
what was the tear drop for
I probably never will understand
I saw you hawking love
I saw you proposition men
I saw you smile and be happy
and i saw you sad too
I saw you use your body
I saw you sell your soul
I was untouched unmoved
I had long back turned to stone

Why.........

Why the heart burn, why the despondency
why the delusional self, why the desperateness
why the flutter of heart, why the breathlessness
why the agony of loss, why the desolation
why the wild flight of imagination
why the unfulfilled dreams
why the never ending tirade of wants and desires
why a mind immersed in sorrow
why a soul lost in transition
why a sour heart that bleeds
why the gut wrenching want to die
why the intelligence to comprehend it all
why the deception of momentary bliss
why the lies, why the truth
why can't he rest in peace


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~asto' ma sat gamaya