I am disconcerted. Conflicted and irritated too
Perhaps it is time to take back seat
who am I to contemplate or proclaim
I don't understand social constructs
I don't understand confirming
I have burnt all bridges I crossed
I don't get why free will is curtailed
Or how expectations work
Today for the first time in a long long time I felt that angst of wanting something to change. I am angry and agitated. It is as if I am expecting something from someone who cannot possibly fathom the rationale of the same or doesn't have the strength to swim against the current, at least not for now anyway.
I have never felt anger in this context
It bothers me
Because I tend to burn everything down with my anger. If there is one pattern in my life, it is my anger and how I have hurt myself because of it. So I guess I need to learn and observe it and not let it get in the way.
