Anger

I am disconcerted. Conflicted and irritated too

Perhaps it is time to take back seat

who am I to contemplate or proclaim

I don't understand social constructs

I don't understand confirming

I have burnt all bridges I crossed

I don't get why free will is curtailed

Or how expectations work

 

Today for the first time in a long long time I felt that angst of wanting something to change. I am angry and agitated. It is as if I am expecting something from someone who cannot possibly fathom the rationale of the same or doesn't have the strength to swim against the current, at least not for now anyway.

I have never felt anger in this context

It bothers me

Because I tend to burn everything down with my anger. If there is one pattern in my life, it is my anger and how I have hurt myself because of it. So I guess I need to learn and observe it and not let it get in the way.