me, my car and a never ending road,
that is all I have, that is all I need,
racing through unknown lands,
trying to leave the hurt behind,
seeing the sun go down
witnessing the dawn of Venus
the Orion shows himself
but my north star still alludes me
the arid wasteland, I am driving through
can use a good rainfall this year
the rain gods are not merciful though
the land remains parched and wanting
like the unquenchable thirst in my heart
the smell of burning wood overwhelms me
reminds me of the smouldering soul inside
no matter how many tears I shed
they fail to put out the fire
the wells have dried up too
and there is no music to be heard
I am heading for sea
but the water is of no use
Nothing seems right
and i don't belong
so I drive on
to the edge of that green mountain
and feel jealousy take me over
I go blind in rage and fury
but hidden from me
the scars of the mountain weep too
I don't know them
I don't see them
All I want is to be green
but green with envy I am
I meet a vagabond en route
ask him his secret of happiness
"hate none, love all" he utters
how, I exclaim
I cannot stop hate from running through my veins
I weep and wail and unwittingly call names
"love all" is the key he says
"hate none" will follow in duress
but to start, love yourself
love what you are, love what you have become
no one can cheat you
because love cannot be cheated
Once found love doesn't end
all you know is hate right now
I muse myself over what he said
and I move on towards my destination
a city where dreams come true
or so they say
I don't have anything to loose now
have lost everything that I held dear
and I am ready to learn to love
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Monday, February 19, 2007
Eklavya - A collosal waste
Had high expectation from Vidhu Vinod Chopra's Eklavya, All i heard was a faint thud as the movie fell into a timeless graveyard of unfulfilled expectations.
Thursday, February 8, 2007
just to be sure - borrowed
Was reading an old friend's blog and came across this post titled "Just to be sure".
It moved me. Some of the best things in life are so innocent and naive. I have to post the content here. I think it is from "Winnie the Pooh"
"Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. "Pooh," he whispered.
"Yes, Piglet?"
"Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's paw, "I just wanted to be sure of you.""
--
~asto' ma sat gamaya
http://ankitbchhibber.googlepages.com/home
"Yes, Piglet?"
"Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's paw, "I just wanted to be sure of you.""
--
~asto' ma sat gamaya
http://ankitbchhibber.googlepages.com/home
Monday, February 5, 2007
Gabble
i see two hands
i see a face with eyes closed
is the face in ecstasy or pain
another story for another day
i see a smile now
and a kiss with wet lips
i hear the proclamation of love
i don't see myself anywhere
I feel a naked body besides me
the body wriggles like a snake
and i wish it was dead
the phone rings in distance
two voices communicate
the talk is endearing
the face has a glow
I have seen this glow before
or so i like to think
i think I thought i was hurt
but love still blooms
instant love instant gratification
he sits there and tonsures his head
he wails out, lets celebrate death
I can hear my heart beat
i think i am very scared
a female with red eyes gives me a drink
i feel better but am drowsy now
i sit in the corner and watch them mate
i find myself engulfed in rage
the rage subsides and I am stoic
i am poisoned just like life
some memories get ingrained in mind
like snap shots of horror
and I keep visiting them again and again
in my house of sorrows
Friday, February 2, 2007
Virgin Mountain
on a distant horizon, she waits for him
in a world gone mad, she craves for him
what is love, she asks naively
but she is a seductress alright
a siren she is and she sings for him
she lures him, entices him
she calls herself his destiny
and he is a sucker for belief
he thinks he will find lasting love
he feels he can tame the medusa
make her hiss for him
little does he know his doom awaits
and his heart will turn to stone
but she loves him, or so she muses
he will have the heart that beats
and emotions that run deep
he would not freeze in pain
he would win her over she feels
she wants redemption too
she wants out of this purgatory
he would be her knight
and she her fair maiden
she beckons him and he gets drawn
and they have the mating dance
by the side of river styx
his eyes closed and his soul content
he reaches for her touch
she gives all she has to the bliss of a kiss
yes they stay together
and salvation is theirs for keeps
they still live on that mountain top
Thursday, February 1, 2007
Casino
Watched the Martin Scorsese film after a gap of about 7 odd years and I saw it in a very different light. First time around i had found the movie very disturbing, I was devastated by Ginger (Sharon Stone's character), guess I was naive back then :-). this time around i saw it as a tale of survival in a world gone wrong. I fell in love with Joe Pesci's performance once again. It is his story, his zest to make it on his own, his dislike for authority, his want to possess what is off limits. and eventually his downfall.
One of the scenes that had remained etched in my memory forever has Joe Pesci stabbing a guy in his neck with a pen. and De Nero narrating in the background "No matter how big a guy might be, Nicky would take him on. You beat Nicky with fists, he comes back with a bat. You beat him with a knife, he comes back with a gun. And you beat him with a gun, you better kill him, because he'll keep comin' back and back until one of you is dead."
The opening scene also sticks out, It has the power of compelling you to watch the story of the guy who gets blown away :-) De Nero walks out to his car and turns the key and the car blows up, and all through this sequence he is narrating the following lines
When you love someone, you've gotta trust them. There's no other way. You've got to give them the key to everything that's yours. Otherwise, what's the point? And, for a while, I believed that's the kind of love I had.
Some other memorable quotes from the movie
A lot of holes in the desert, and a lot of problems are buried in those holes. But you gotta do it right. I mean, you gotta have the hole already dug before you show up with a package in the trunk. Otherwise, you're talking about a half-hour to forty-five minutes worth of digging. And who knows who's gonna come along in that time? Pretty soon, you gotta dig a few more holes. You could be there all fuckin' night. (Nicky - Joe Pesci's Charatcer)
think in all fairness, I should explain to you exactly what it is that I do. For instance tomorrow morning ill get up nice and early, take a walk down over to the bank and... walk in and see and uh... if you don't have my money for me, I'll... crack your fuckin' head wide-open in front of everybody in the bank. And just about the time that I'm comin' out of jail, hopefully, you'll be coming out of your coma. And guess what? I'll split your fuckin' head open again. 'Cause I'm fuckin' stupid. I don't give a fuck about jail. That's my business. That's what I do. (Nicky - Joe Pesci's Charatcer)
A drifter on prowl
moving from one green pasture to another
a lost ignorant soul
not absorbed by anything around
when he feels hungry he steals
when he feels scared he ravages
when he is happy, he sings
and dances to the tune
tune of an unheard song
tune of an unheard song
he lives for today
with no thought of tomorrow
tomorrow might be a bright dawn
or a gloomy rainy day
he will face it when it comes
he will live it if it happens
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