Let me be

Quite frankly I am tired. Of what, I don't even want to ponder. My fibromyalgia has not improved wee bit and right now am in middle of another flare up. Am tired of people who proclaim understanding, I am tired of all the phonies. Am tired of thinking about stuff that is beyond my control, and no I refuse to entertain and please anyone. Anyone at all. I am trying to be cold, so if that is what you think I have become, I am succeeding. I have had enough of unpleasant situations and people exhorting me to face them. No I refuse to be part of any stupid discussion, no matter how desperate one might feel about it. I cannot assuage people and refuse to indulge in this perversion. I live for myself and yes I am the asshole whole world warned you about. So just let me be and go burden someone else with your meaningless rhetoric.I am trying to cope with my illness and I don't rely on anyone to ease it for me, am not fishing for anything, no empathy no sympathy, not even acceptance of any sort.Just leave me alone and let me be.I don't owe anyone anything, nor do I expect anything.