Soar up in the sky
leave the horizons behind
venture into the void beyond
it feels a lot like one inside of me
vast expanse of nothing
bogged down by inconsequential tidbits
but they tease me and make me yearn
make me want to want some more
beyond the first star
the second and the third
the count goes on
lost in near infinity
trying to find my way home
where is home
it used to be here but no more
it used to be there but no more
an acid trip to get back home
to get back to the love and the pain
move on now, says ground control
there is nothing to move on to
says the voice in my head
traces of a dream linger on
she had revealed the intimate secret
I saw her with vermilion
didn't register it was for me
saw two boys and a happy extended family
like heaven that would never be
and then it fades to oblivion
still fighting demons I fought
trying to be strong when I am not
brave when I am not
feet primed to run
I am rooted to the vision
a lonely oddball among stars
no unsolicited love
no solicited sorrow
just plain abstract agony
and emotions too strong
emptiness inside me that yearns
and yearns and yearns some more
