यहीं कहीं ज़िंदा हूँ अभी

यहीं कहीं ज़िंदा हूँ अभी 

तुझे देखे की ख़ातिर शायद

दिल की धड़कने टूटी नहीं 

आँखों की आस भी बाक़ी है 

शायद एक दिन तू मिल भी जाए

साँस का रुकना बाक़ी है अभी

सुबह को तेरी याद, रात को तेरी फ़रियाद

हाथ बढ़ाऊँ और छू लूँ तुझे 

यह ख़्वाब भी बाक़ी है अभी 

सीने में समा न पायें

सब अरमान बाक़ी हैं अभी 

यहीं कहीं ज़िंदा हूँ अभी 

तेरे मिलने की उम्मीद मैं शायद 

Gold at the end of rainbow

I see you, in every breath I take

sitting next to me

oblivious of my pain

like a veiled dagger

piercing my soul

that embarrassed smile

those bright eyes

play that we make

things that I do

thoughts I wish I could project

to embrace you to oblivion

die next moment

nothing unique

nothing new

peak of intensity though

didn't know I could feel it again

was safe and forgotten wasn't I

melancholy but sane

low but balanced

broken but trudging along

lonely, yes a lot

like an acid trip kicking in

you make all this beautiful, yet unbearable

wish I could cry

tears, they dried up long time back

infatuations don't last they say

mine do and don't go away

please be gone

let me breathe easy again

let me not know what i miss

let me not worship the idea of you

cause notions are all I have chased

and none had gold at end of rainbow

Motive

Why is love so hard

why does love change at all

why do we yearn 

why is silence a premium

why do we find ourselves tied

why oh why

when life is but a fleeting moment

all you stand for will turn to dust

years from now no one will know

no one will bother

why can't we be the way we want to be

desiring someone with all you have

missing someone will all you are worth

lovers all done and gone

lovers to be in waiting

it is not that my love is fickle

I just feel and want to live a bit more

to possess someone is fleeting

to catch that fleeting moment

and live a lifetime in it is the motive