i dunno am sort of depressed today
need for a simulating conversation is what I feel
or perhaps a quiet company
transitions are always tricky
they have their way of eating into you
nothing is decided, dunno where one is headed
but then the irony is that life it self is transitional in nature
sometimes I think I obsess too much about life
about birth, death and the goriness of existence in between
why don't other people do it
I see people blissfully unaware of all this
living life, planning for eons, for generations to come
people caught up is stupid trivialities of small issues
like what did the neighbor say, how did the relatives behave
trying to read between lines for each and everything
trying very hard to find meaning in a meaningless world
and they don't even know that they exist
they take that for granted
there is no effort to experience life
and then there are some, who are absolutely driven to succeed
what do they gain
I fail to understand this breed
running after money, though money is awesome to have
but still running madly in a race to make money
studying hard for exams
aiming for jobs
the more I try not to be part of this rat race
the more I get sucked in
I am learning to accept it, and not get upset over the fact that I seem to be losing out on some cheese, as I refuse to run like a hamster in a cage
sometimes I get upset and as soon as I realize what I am getting upset over I forgive myself :-) and move on
what a shit hole
how can anyone be happy
I wish I was like them, sometimes
but most of the times I wish they were all like me :-D
