Leave him be

Bleak is the light
that shone once on horizon
it is dusk again
before it could be dawn
he took the flight
thinking love would heal
flew too close to sun
had not read the fable of Icarus perhaps
now strangely contended with life
in the darkness he searches
for the pieces that were him
could they be glued together
eventually they will become dust
so why give a damn now
why care for the one who is lost
leave him be
he won't be heard again

--
~asto' ma sat gamaya

Surging Ahead

Has it happened to you
you wanted something desperately
for the whole of your life
and when you got it
you were shit scared
because you didn't know how life would turn out
because all your life till that moment
was just about desperately wanting it
and it is very scary
to let go of what you have known
for the whole of your life
and surge ahead into unknown.

but there might be positive here too
one just has to look for it.

--
~asto' ma sat gamaya

getting high

Meandering through the thoughts
wisps of smoke from smouldering tobacco
formless just like the smoke
has this life been
as i walk through the moments
revisiting them again
enshrined, entombed in past
in some culvert of my mind
i see the chaos that has ruled
i see the agony that has drained me
I see the hurt i have inflicted
on to myself
again and again
without any fail
life seems like a house of horrors
It is like getting high on pot
but not knowing what to do with it


--
~asto' ma sat gamaya

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Die each day,
don't let your ego live for the next day
don't carry hurt
don't carry happiness
when you go to sleep
let the slumberland engulf you
like the earth in 'dust to dust'
and wake up a new being
free from tiresome thoughts
thoughts of self doubt
of inadequacy
of freedom
of passion

--
~asto' ma sat gamaya

Rockstar - Modern Poetry at best

Every once in a while we come across a song that goes back to the true meaning of rock, when poetry weds music. when the artist sees the naked truth.
This is one of my current favourites

Rockstar by Nickelback

I'm through with standin' in line
at clubs I'll never get in
It's like the bottom of the ninth
and I'm never gonna win
this life hasn't turned out
quite the way I want it to be
(Tell me what you want)

I want a brand new house
on an episode of Cribs
And a bathroom I can play baseball in
And a king size tub big enough
for ten plus me
--(So what you need)--

I need a a credit card that's got no limit
And a big black jet with a bedroom in it
Gonna join the mile high club
At thirty-seven thousand feet
--(Been there done that)--

I want a new tour bus full of old guitars
My own star on Hollywood Boulevard
Somewhere between Cher and
James Dean is fine for me
(So how you gonna do it?)

I'm gonna trade this life for fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair and change my name

[CHORUS]
'Cause we all just wanna be a big rockstars and
Live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
in the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blonde hair
And well...

Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar

I wanna be great like Elvis without the tassels
Hire eight body guards that love to beat up assholes
Sign a couple autographs
So I can eat my meals for free
--(I'll have the quesadilla, ha-ha)--

I'm gonna dress my ass
with the latest fashion
Get a front door key to the Playboy mansion
Gonna date a centerfold that loves to
blow my money for me
(So how you gonna do it?)

I'm gonna trade this life
For fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair
And change my name

'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
we'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
in the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blonde hair
And we'll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary of
today's who's who
They'll get you anything
with that evil smile
Everybody's got a
drug dealer on speed dial, well
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar

I'm gonna sing those songs
that offend the censors
Gonna pop my pills
from a Pez dispenser
Get washed-up singers writing all my songs
Lip --sync-- 'em every night so I don't get 'em wrong

Well we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in Hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
in the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blond hair
And we'll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary of
today's who's who
They'll get you anything
with that evil smile
Everybody's got a
drug dealer on speed dial, well

Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
--
~asto' ma sat gamaya

Seneca says

Begin at once to live, and count each day as a separate llife
~Seneca

A profound statement, I think i understand it :-)

--
~asto' ma sat gamaya

burning star

I am the burning star
the beacon you have been looking for
I will show you the way, every day
and i will never complain
just burn all day, every day
give away my light
so that you can see
what it means to be
a burning star


--
~asto' ma sat gamaya

no good without evil

look at me now
stare me in my eyes
feel the pain, do you
feel the loss of being right
wings torn and clipped
lend me some glue
let me soar up to the moon
lets party where no one has been
live for the moment
get wasted beyond senses
come down on the altar
they want their sacrifice
when the blood will flow
and trickle down to dirt
demons will rise then
gods will be appeased
they have someone to slay
to conquer to plunder
good vs evil
and good will win
but all will forget
there is no good without evil

--
~asto' ma sat gamaya

The voilets and the reds
the yellows and the pinks
bloom all of you bloom
paint the town with all the hues
let the scented breeze blow
and engulf me ever so softly
in the careless whispers of time
let me revel, let me rejoice
let me be born again
let me die


--
~asto' ma sat gamaya